My tiny little baby had his 2 month check-up yesterday. He weighs a whopping 13lbs 2oz. That's in the 80th percentile folks. He also got 3 shots and one oral vaccine. It just breaks your heart to hear you little baby cry from those shots!
So, here's the mommy guilt.....I want to stop breastfeeding my son. It's not the breastfeeding that I have issue with, it's the pumping. I HATE pumping. I don't have the patience/attention span for it. I tried setting a schedule at work of 10:30 and 2:30. I get started then start thinking of all the crap I need to be doing at work. And since both my hands are full, I can do nothing. Don't get me wrong, my boss & all at work don't have a problem with it. They haven't said anything about it taking away from work time. If I were not working and just at home full time I don't think it would have even crossed my mind to stop breastfeeding him. It's the DAMN pumping! However I feel guilty about stopping because I know it's what's best for him. I feel guilty that I want to stop just because it's an inconvienance for me. It makes me feel selfish. I know I shouldn't feel bad. Formula is probably the best it's ever been, the closest to breastmilk and probably even better on the days I don't eat too healthy or have too much caffeine. He already gets some at daycare because I just can't pump enough to keep up with him. And that's the other thing. When I do exclusivly breastfeed him on the weekends, that is pretty much all I do. He is almost constantly attached to me. He's a growing boy & I just can't keep up with him.
I just feel bad wanting to stop without a "legitimate" excuse. Like mastitis or clogged milk ducts. (not that I want those, I'm just saying that would be a real reason to give it up!). So far I have not made the decision to stop. I am very torn between continuing to do this for him and actually having my body back to myself. We'll see.
*By the way, isn't he just the cutest!? Look at that sweet little smile!
1 comment:
Your baby is a cutie...I stopped breastfeeding at 6 months, with the same reasons. The pumping drove me nuts...but also, he was intolerant to my milk if I ate cheese or other dairy...so I couldn't have mac and cheese, pizza, cereal with milk...only soy milk...oh, man, what bliss it is now to eat cheese to my heart's content, and yogurt...
By the way, I give him Walmart brand formula: it's only $11.88 a can compared to the $24 a can for Enfamil and Similac, and since formula is FDA regulated, you are pretty much getting the same thing (even DHA additives, which Enfamil raves about...the Walmart brand has it too!...oh, Target has their own brand formula, but it is exactly the same at the Walmart one, made in the same factory...they charge a little of $12 though), minus advertising costs. And my kid thrives on it!
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