to post or not to post....

I've been having conflicting thoughts about a very long, ranting post regarding work. I don't usually blog about work.
If you haven't noticed, I have a somewhat unique name. I am a fairly private person and only 3 people I know in real life know that my blog exists. Two of those people rarely ever stop in & have actualy probably even forgotten about it.
So, that being said, I'm slightly concerned someone I know will stumble upon here. I don't want that to cause me problems at work.
I don't know, maybe I'll entertain you with the story of why I'm contemplating quitting my job (if only I could find another one!).

Good News

The baby's heart rate today was 133! I am 6wks and 5days and due October 5th. So far, so good! Now I just have to remain calm & not go crazy for about another 6 weeks then I'll be able to relax a little more....maybe.

Life Is Short

This morning I found out that a guy I went to high school with's wife died. I'd only met her a handful of times. She was probably around 28, give or take a year or two (he's 30). I guess she hadn't been feeling well. He left to go pick up their two boys and by the time he got back home with them, she had died. I can't even imagine coming home to that. Wow.
Their boys are around 4 and 1. Just the thought of trying to explain it to them breaks my heart.

Of Vampires and Probes

Yesterday morning I got more blood drawn and my hcg level is 6081! I had figured it needed to be at least 5280 to be safe so that is good. I even got my sonogram yesterday afternoon. I had the normal goo on the stomach one then we had to do the transvaginal to get a better look. There wasn't much to see since it's so early. And with their measuring I'd be due 10/5 but going by my last period I have a due date of 9/28. So, I'm not really sure how far along I am or my due date yet. I was awaiting the official report back from my dr and they just called this morning. The nurse said I'm measuring smaller than we'd thought (which the ultrasound tech told me) and that they could see the heartbeat. However, it's only 89 (I think it's supposed to be around 120). I'm told it's not uncommon for it to be a little slow this early & then pick up to where it's supposed to be. So I've got another sono scheduled for the 15th to just kind of check & see.
Let you know how it goes.

That's My Baby

This morning I kept asking Faith if she was going to wear her snow boots today (it snowed a bunch yesterday). She said no, she'd wear her regular shoes. I kept asking & finally, as we were going to walk out the door, she decided she was going to wear them. I was helping her change into them so we weren't late. As I'm putting one on her she looks as me and says with bright shiny eyes and a giggle "I like to eat snow off of my boots!"
Yup ladies and gentlemen, that's my child. So proud......