Bracing Myself

So, come next thursday, I might not have a job.
I was "offically" written up last thursday. I have until the 30th to um, I guess show significant improvement. See, since January I guess my performance has declined. I'm guessing it's because I've been doing the work of, roughly, 3 people. But I guess one of the three of me is not doing my job good enough. Shit. Bad Sharona.
Also, our new office manager (?) boss (?) chick that was hired in Jan. is interviewing new people. Yes, we're trying to grow. I'm told she's not trying to replace me. Now, do I beleive the B.S. they're shoveling? Not quite.
I guess my thought is this. If you're not happy with my performance, fine. If you're giving me a warning, fine. If this warning was just paperwork for the file & you've already decided I'm gone on the 30th then you're an asshole.
We'll see.

BLECH

Okay, so I've said before how I have very realistic dreams. I had one last night. The only part I remember was I was with these people against my will. I don't know why, or who they were but we were there. One of them was mixing up a huge jug of stuff they were going to make me drink. It was a weird blue color and the only thing I know of that was in it was at least one small container of elmer's glue. The consistancey was a little runnier than glue. (this is just weird, I know.) Now at this point, they were going to make me drink it one way or another. I asked if I could have a straw. I figured it HAD to go down, maybe with a straw I would taste it less. (I feel really stupid even typing this!! It's just weird!) Okay, so I drank the stuff. It was disgusting & made me want to vomit but they forced me to drink it. I woke up after that so I don't know what it was supposed to do but all day I had this horrible, nasty taste in my mouth.
Once again, I've shown you all just how weird I am. Fantastic.

The Trip

Our trip to WA was wonderful. I'm really very glad we were finally able to make it out & visit. There were several times as we were all sitting around the living room hanging out & talking that I just kind of stopped & looked around & was just kind of like, "wow. I'm really finally here again." But for the most part, it was more like we always come visit & it hadn't been 16 1/2 years.

It was also very fortunate that during our visit my aunt T was doing well. She was able to spend time with us & play with the kids. I know she would get tired & go rest but we were able to spend quality time with her. I think she made a lasting impression on Faith! Aunt T gave her kool aid for breakfast and pretty much at any other time too! Faith really enjoyed aunt T's dogs. Penny is a little deaf dog that would hang out by Faith on the floor & get some loving. Then there was Milo, whom aunt T was afraid might um...eat the children. However, Milo was a perfect gentelman! It took him just a little bit to warm up & then he would hang out for awhile then go in the other room for some quiet time. When we were flying out of Seattle Faith seemed a little sad. I asked her what was wrong & she said she missed Penny & Milo!

I was a little concerned about the akwardness factor with my dad & stepmom. I would say things were great.

My dad & Dominic

I was not really sure how to address the "this is my dad & stepmom and uh, your grandpa" with Faith. I put it off until the last minute because I really just didn't know what to say. After they had pulled up at my grandparents & were on their way in Faith & I were standing in the kitchen. I said "hey Faith. So, that guy (we saw them out the window) is my dad. Sooo, that makes him your grandpa." Faith kind of gave me a suprised funny look & says "so, you have two dads?! Awesome!" and moved on with life. There you have it. Nice & simple!

My Aunt T, Aunt C, stepmom & dad